Blake's surgery is next Wednesday. I am beginning to get nervous. I know it is his best option, but there is still a small part of me that wonders if there is some innovative surgeon out there that could get him walking and save his leg. Blake is as prepared as he can be. He knows exactly what is happening. He can tell anyone about his upcoming surgery, what the doctor is going to do, how he is going to do it, and why. I explained the whole process to him, one small part at a time over a period of about 4 weeks. In addition, we read a book about a special pony named Molly. Molly had to have her lower leg amputated and then she was fitted with a prosthesis. We also looked at some pictures of other kids with a prosthetic leg. We read a few blogs about kids with prosthetics as well. Last Wednesday we went to the hospital for a tour. Blake enjoyed dressing up like a surgeon, meeting all of the nurses, and seeing the surgery room. He even was able to take his surgeon outfit home. Needless to say, we have all had a lot of pretend surgeries lately!
The surgeon believes he will be off prescription pain meds within a week of surgery. That will bring us to Spring break. If he is ready, he will be able to go back to school after the break. I think the first few days after surgery will be rough for Blake. He will have a lot of pain and I am certain he will struggle to cope with his loss. No matter how prepared he is, it is impossible to prepare him for how he is going to feel about the loss of his leg. Blake is a resilient, high spirited little boy. I believe he will bounce back when his pain is gone and he has had some time to process his feelings. He has been telling his class mates about his surgery and they will all be praying for him while he is out of school. Blake likes to tell his story, and a group of curious 1st graders are the perfect audience!
When I ask Blake how he feels about the surgery, he tells me he is a little scared. But then he smiles and starts talking about his "sleepover" at the hospital with mom and riding a bike! I know all will be ok, but it is hard to think about him being in pain and struggling with his loss. Please keep him in your prayers. I will try to keep everyone posted about the surgery.